Sometimes I even wonder why I even bother to date. I am such a scared little chicken. Everyone who comes close to me I just push away. I like my walls high and me defense bitchy.
I blame the awkwardness of meeting new people, like meeting their friends, or parents! I tell everyone I just love being alone more. But I am actually really afraid of getting hurt. That it won’t look like anything I ever wanted. Or, even worse, it will be amazing and then it gets crushed.
(Photo’s: Delft, Light night December 2014)