A few days ago I walked with heavy eyes to my car. After a 9 hour school day I just can’t feel anything anymore or do anything. When in the car I can feel the tears behind my eyes. It starts with a soft quit sob. Tears steaming down my face. Faster and faster. The sob turns into loud cry. Everything is just too much. I postponed things I needed to do, I distance myself from the people I care about and I neglected myself.
I’ve been offline the whole weekend. And oh, it felt good. I completely focused on me. This week is the exposition. After that I will be taking one whole week off. To do only fun and happy things.
As you might know, I am truly scared of the future. But for now I have a plan. I am going to take is slow with the blog for now, try to figure out the role the blog will play in my future plan. Don’t worry! I am not going anywhere. There just will be less posts a week. And the loss of some categories.
Oh damn, this was hard to write. I still feel I left things un explained. I will explain. When I am ready.