Here I am. After a radio silence, I wrote you a letter. I am here with an explanation. After the post about my current situation, I felt like I only made things more vague for you. Now here I am typing this with a heavy heart.
I gave up on my own company. It felt like I was postponing my future for a while now. I wasn’t planning on working in the restaurant my whole life. But I also was too scared to do something. Going fulltime into my own company without anything did not seem like a good idea. I wanted a job with more security. The same paycheck every month and all other good things that come with that. So just like that I let my company go.
It might seem like a huge decision, but I thought it through. So the next step was to find out what kind of job I wanted. I had my eyes on some journalist jobs. I worked my ass off and got myself an internship. As an editor, social media editor and part responsible for advertisement. I am super duper hyped. This is what I want.
Now don’t you worry your pretty little heads. I am not going anywhere. I gave up on my company, not on my own little piece of the Internet. I just need to figure some more things out. I love the person who I became in a year. I love even more who I am becoming. It is hard to balance all these things. I have two jobs now, I still want to photograph and do fashion shoots, I still want to write poems and I still want to blog. I also want to keep seeing my friends, my boyfriend and do things that relax me or amuse me.
I just need a little more time to find a balance. After finding out what direction I want to go with my life, I need to find the direction I want to go with my blog. I still want to do outfits. But I was thinking maybe a bit more of a diary? I don’t know yet. But I will know you will see me soon, ready to kick some ass.